Feb 10, 2010

Up at 4:10am. Woke up from a bad dream and couldn't get back to sleep. Not to mention the headache. I really need a new pillow.

Vitality - progress 5

Am now preparing the necklace for a pearl fringe... still have to make up a clasp.

*GACK*

Imagine my stunned surprise when I find out that Zoya Gutina wants to be friends on Facebook!!! I'm completely floored!!

Feb 9, 2010

I'm pretty sure I've got the flu. Woke up yesterday with swollen glands and coughing. Then got feverish off and on. This morning, was awoken by the need to go, so I ran to the washroom. I'm going to see how today goes. I don't have any 'real' need to leave the house except for the meeting, but if I'm sick, I won't be going again. I'm not going to look that far ahead and just focus on hour to hour.

Vitality - progress 4

Oreos

I've been obsessed with Oreo's for a couple of years. I've *HAD* to have them in the house. I realized last night that my tastebuds have changed because they don't taste right anymore... and it's not because it's a different package, they just taste different to me now. I wonder if it's because of the Abilify? Guess I'll find out. Either way, I'm okay with it as I'm not craving them anymore :)

Prayer works!

I've found a therapist and she's less than 10 mins away from me!! Her office called ChampVA and they were informed that ChampVA would cover it whether they were on the Tri-Care list or not. Now, why couldn't they have told ME that?? Anyways, my appt is on March 3rd at 10am and it's a lady psychiatrist. I believe ChampVA covers 24 visits a year and it's only going to cost me $38 a visit! woo hoo!

Vitality - progress 3

Now to work on building up the sides :)

Feb 8, 2010

Up at ten to 5. I'm in a much more subdued mood today. I'm still tired, but had the urge to get up so I could bead. I was planning on driving back to the shop for some more black thread, but I told Frank last week that if I wake up before 6am, I can't drive long distances. I need to stick to that resolution. So, instead, later on I'll be driving 3 miles to send a dress back to Woman Within and get a new speaker phone for the house.

I did have a coffee this morning, but I don't have anything planned other than the short drive, so there's nothing to get worked up over. I really wish I didn't crave these drinks, but I do and I'm tired of fighting everything. So, today I had a coffee and tomorrow I won't because I want to drive to the shop. I'll take my pills later tonight so that *maybe* I'll wake up later tomorrow.

can't

do it. Went to breakfast with Frank and sat there while wave after wave after wave of anxiety attacks hit me. Sat there bawling, trying to calm down so Frank could at least enjoy his coffee and his paper.

No caffiene before a meeting. If that doesn't work, then no going for breakfast before a meeting. It could have been either or it could have been both causing the anxiety attacks.

I HAVE to start thinking ahead to the consequences. It's very difficult for me to do that as I am compulsive about wanting things. But if I truly, really want to make it to the meetings, I HAVE to stay away from anything that can trigger the attacks.

Lesson learned.